Julie & Julia, Mimie & Julie

Just now I finished watching a movie, “Julie & Julia”. I watched it with my lovely friend Jojo. She once said that the character looks like me, the Julie one, in 2004, not the features and looking of hers only but also her personality as well she said. I said ok let’s watch it together and she joined me for her second time. I so enjoyed watching it. I didn’t admit her that she was right about resembling me and Julie (in some points). About cooking, loving to serve it to others, (and yes, housework), emotionality, blogging maybe, friendship, the style. And about the looking of her, she more looks like my mom, or more likely my grandmother's young ages as she has green eyes like Julie ~.~)

Actually I used to be the same of Julie before 2-3 years. In Malaysia when I face all the things while I am all alone, I became more resistant to problems and everything. I know my weaknesses. I was more fragile, could get hurt by someone. Sometimes I need a supporter just like Julie. Sometimes I am very obsessed and I’m aware that I am but nothing I want to do about it. At those times I don’t wanna look at the bright side, just be how I want to feel for that moment, 100% of the emotions, no matter what it takes. However, it doesn’t go by that way. Obsession is something that I think harden my life somehow. And I trained myself to be more resistant, and not to need any one for any support that I was enough there to support. I taught myself that if my tears shed the one who wipe them will be me, myself, no one is needed. Secondly, my environment. I am really into the academy for these years as a scientist. The life gets more serious maybe. And the important thing is why I do it I might not have someone in future just like ‘Eric’ who was the most supportive person in Julie’s life, her husband. I admire their relationships that how patience he would be. Love is something that, if you are really into it, nothing is problem.. I don't know how to explain. I don't really know.. And I don't have faith I can find it out.Ok, I suggest you to watch it too. You will find many things to learn from that and enjoy. It’s an amazing true story of two persons` lives. The dreams come true, and they both fulfill their hungers in their life which I am not sure for what I do have it. I had no intended to be a writer. I do not know how it can be with me. I love to write, anything comes to my mind, basically I start to do writing in my mind, I am talking, and talking and keep doing it for a while then say, ok, it’s enough to discuss, let’s write some of them down. From the movie I asked to myself, hey what am I missing? Yeah, I didn’t write for long except study notes and the exam papers which I don’t count them as writing. The ice cubes of my life... I wonder why I can’t have this appetite to write my thesis too! I really cannot get it. Anyway, it’s now 1:39 am, in this moment I do not know what time it’s gonna take to end. I got so tired today as I had two exams from Phycology and Biosensor Technology respectively, and 7 hours classes with one hour extra to the dead ending. I was holding myself from fainting because of tiredness you know as I couldn’t get enough rest nowadays due to the study. However, we came to the end of this week finally. You know, when you wanna start something, from that point it looks really big but everything finishes on time, and they go smooth most of the time thank God! I do believe that God helps me, otherwise I can’t imagine myself. I got a bad flu from this evening I came to my room, I don’t have any idea where I got this virus from. If I can’t find it I’m gonna blame Virology class, :P Ok, that was an ice-cubed-joke too but somehow I apologize, next time I will do the better one, give it to my sickness, sleepiness and tiredness. I think I should go and get some rest. Tomorrow I am willing to do the final step in my project FYUP for the lab work!!! Wuuhh.. And after that a big applause to Mimiii!! (I think by next week) And, I had had my birthday presents from you… Of course I know you didn’t forget it and thank you so much for the flowers, they were deadly beautiful!! Thank you again, I hope you will get a nice sleep, bed is calling you… Bye!! ;)