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Do you know what I’m doing right now? Sitting in a summerhouse just behind of masjid and the library, watching the environment, birds and cars… Nobody realizes I’m crying. I didn’t cry for long time this is good for my eyes now. I sometimes want to use really bad words like right now! Just holding my tongue.. You struggle to do something a lot. You finish up everything well just with 5 minutes difference mess up. I wonder why not good possibilities happens true in my life, why always the worst thing ever comes to me. I did my best for this time, didn’t sleep whole night. Because of some stupid things it can’t go far… not because of those things actually because of me. I am the one who has to be blamed. Beside that nobody but nobody helped me, only in one day I could finish it. This is not fair while everybody is getting help from their SV. Someone is calling.. I don’t wanna answer it, Jojo, sorry.. I don’t wanna think and talk about this submission. I don’t know why still crying? Like, I won’t stop writing even though the page is finishing. This place is very nice now. You can see the shades are getting longer underneath the trees, sun is radiating with losing its strength of light. My nose is running, mosquitoes are biting very badly. Ok, I’m fine now. I don’t think I’m gonna upload this writing to my blog but if I’m really fine I can upload everything I wrote down just now without changing any word of that. Bye sun, bye birds.. Bye this summerhouse.. You helped me becoming better. Thank you… at the library now.. (I want to sleep but they wrote ‘ATTENTION, PLEASE DO NOT LIE DOWN AND SLEEP IN THIS AREA.’) By the way the thing what I mentioned in a post has occurred. My writing is on this website, www.dunyabizim.com